and death...

Death is a scary thought… thought of ‘Dying in a bathroom’ is just plain horrible n lil nasty.

That almost happened today morning. Woke up, killed the alarm, went back to sleep. Woke up after sometime, cursing the person who was calling me up on the phone. Brushed my teeth, switched the TV on, and went to put the heating coil thing into the bucket. I was holding it and plugged it in, without seeing that the goddamn switch was on.

Had a sudden, searing insane pain in my hand,like someone was holidng and crushing it, and the first thought which came into my over-imaginative, ‘scared-of-evil-spirits’ mind was that it was a ghost trying to kill me. In the next fraction of a second, had the horrible realization that I was being electrocuted. Tried to throw away that thing, but was stuck to my hand. Had a major panic attack. And before I knew, somehow, the plug came out of the socket, and it all stopped! It all happened in a few seconds, but felt like a long time while it was happening. The human brain can work so damn fast ?!?!

Only after a few seconds, I actually realized what had happened. Was extremely stupid of me to plug it in , while holding it, and not looking at the stupid switch. My right hand’s aching horribly , prolly to serve as a reminder t o not indulge in any such stupidity.

Also feeling pretty phiolosophical.. life is so fleeting man, can end just like that… on the road, in your bathroom, on the beach.. just in a matter of seconds… live while u can..

I’m quite spooked with how close I came to dying, but still …Very happy to be alive… 

I guess there’s someone down here who’s praying for me, and someone up there is listening.. 

LIFE...

Things in life just randomly keep taking sudden turns, sometimes 90 degrees turns and sometimes even a complete 180 degrees u turn.
Right after you've had a great vacation with family and friends and are super-happy, you are forced to endure a 12 hour long bus-ride which is so bumpy that it makes your stomach churn. And guess what? it's dinner-time for the mosqiutoes under your seat.
Another scenario..
You're totally bummed out with things. Work sucks, people around you are boring and there's absolutely nothing in life which is even remotely interesting. And then you receive mail - your work has been published in a book! You can't stop smiling.
Yet another sharp shift.
The course of life never lets you feel a particular emotion for too long.. When you are too tired, you come across an extremely comfortable couch, and just as you start getting too comfortable, it gets pulled out from under you.
Life seems to be a very long journey with twists and turns and tricks and treats. You need to have courage, perserverence, and yes, a sense of humour to live through it.
But then again, life also seems quite short, as for the first ten years, we are mentally incapable, next 7-8 years, emotionally unstable, and last few years, physically incapacitated.
So well, life really is a bundle of contradictions.We can't make up our mind about it.. What we CAN do , however, is to use every ounce of our potential to fully live every moment of every day.
As someone said, "Life is nothing but a bunch of well-lived days strung together".
So go write that book, go have that make-over, go form your music band and put up a show.
Just do it.