senseless nonsense..!!..

Sometimes in life your computer and the network test your patience to the breaking point. You wait endlessly for the particular course to load.. but it just stays there, hung with a stupid ‘please wait’ plastered across its face, seemingly enjoying antagonizing u. You can either rant and rile in frustration, or just tell it to get lost and open a word n start scribbling away to glory.
I was thinking about the things i’d rather be doing instead of staring at my stupid monitor, and my flights of fantasy went places..

I’d like to be working as an apprentice under Sam Walton, the genius who started Wal-Mart for a few days. I’d thoroughly enjoy that. It’s amazing story, the building up of a retail empire from a dollar store. I want to be there in his initial days and watch that man envisioning the plans of huge expansions..

I’d also like to be present when the greatest epic of all times, the Mahabharata was being composed. Just to lay my eyes on the great sage who composed that extraordinary saga that the whole world respects.

One partly silly thing I thought was.. I’d like to arrange a meeting between Adolf Hitler and mother Teresa.. make them stay together for a while and see who influences whom!!

Among the hundreds of things I want to learn, one that popped into my mind right now is learning how to eat with chopsticks. I’m very curious how do those people manage to do that?? Specially rice! Ain’t it frustrating to do that? Or maybe that’s the idea! Make eating so complex that people will stay thin.. would be very helpful to me..i’ll try it out.. Can someone gift me a pair of chopsticks?

Some things going in my mind are dangerous to be put up on the net… I might be hunted down and killed before I can even shut down my system..

I also want to know some great truths about myself. Not who am I? or my purpose in this universe or some philosophical crap, (no.. I’m too smart 2 b a philosopher).. the stuff I want to know is more like why the hell can’t I get up early in the morning? Why do I postpone only the most important things? Why..why why only the last minute to do anything? Most importantly, when the hell will I finish that novel I started writing around five yrs back.. actually will I ever?????

Well this train of thoughts has to stop somewhere!

Last of all.. I want to meet Bill Gates in person and tell him how much I appreciate Microsoft Word and the wonderful way I’m using it.. to type out useless thoughts and post them in useless blogs that even I don’t give a damn about!

frog princess? lolz..

“U r like a frog in a well!!”

That’s what a friend of mine told me a few days back.

My first reaction- “whaaaat?? No way!!”
The idea was so ridiculous that I was more amused than offended.
Why?
I’ve traveled all over India,(except the northeast) and have been to a lot of places.
I’ve read about a diverse range of things, from Aztec and greek mythology to nebulae and black holes in the universe.. from detailed tales of Hinduism to biographies of entrepreneurs.. from classical literature to stupid fiction novels..
I have a lott of friends..
And I have high (almost unrealistic) ambitions..

So how the hell am I a frog in a well thingy?? I thought if this guy thinks I’m dat, maybe he duznt know me at all!! The most frustrating part was that he wouldn’t even tell me why he thought so.

Well, putting aside why he thought so… this incident got me thinking about a lot of things. True, I don’t have a closed mind, but of late, I have only been looking at things which were right there in front of my eyes. For quite a while now, I’ve completely been missing the bigger picture!
I lost a lot of precious, precious time pursuing temporary gratifications. All my plans n my dream kept tumbling down the hill, but my blanket(or should I call it a ‘shroud’?)
of complacency was so comfortable that I didn’t even care! I was happily ignoring the fact that time was running away.

I had a whole year!! A whole year to improve myself, and go chasing my dream.
But I chose to while away my time keeping my brain occupied with petty things, just like a stupid frog in a stupid well!!! Actually I’m worse coz I, unlike the frog , know that there’s a whole world outside my well, know that I desperately want 2 be there and make it big.
However, in this one year, I’ve experienced a lot. I’ve had many wonderful moments, had a lot of fun, felt very special sometimes and have been very thankful for having wonderful friends… and I do not regret any of it.. these are moments I shall cherish all my life, preserved carefully in the pages of my diary.

BUT Right now, I’m in the same situation as I was last yr… in deep mess, disappointed with myself, uncertain of the future and sick with realization of the fact that I’ve seriously screwed up one year of my life.

So am I a frog in a well?? No. I still don’t think so. I’ve made some mistakes, I took some things for granted.. but still.. no, I’m not.
Why?
Coz I’ve just jumped out of it!! :P

dental mental

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The American poet Ogden Nash said
“Some tortures are physical and some are mental;
But the one that’s both is dental” .
Too true!!
In my case it was more mental than physical, when I had a ‘root canal surgery’ done on one of my teeth.. Actually it was a financial torture! Dental care in Bangalore is insanely expensive.
This ordeal which lasted for over 4 weeks (weekends, actually) taught me a few things.
Lesson 1: NEVER ever ignore a cavity!
Just coz I ignored it, I had to spend five Saturdays in the dentist’s office, sitting in a stupid position, with my mouth hanging open, shell out a month’s salary on a stupid tooth( the health insurance plan duzn’t cover it!!! Not fair!!) and spend some sleepless nights getting terrorized!
Week 1:
My first visit, the doc, a pleasant old man got an x-ray done n said in a morose voice.. “sorry dear, u need a root canal. Come back next week” .
I kept worrying, tried not to worry, talked abt it, cursed myself for not getting it treated earlier.. n somehow the week passed.
Week 2:
Back at the dentist’s, same time, same place. This time it was a nice lady, a root canal specialist.
Doc: “ hi manasa.. what I’ll do is drill a hole in ur tooth, pull out the tissue, cut the nerve off, fix a screw…..”
Me: “ please doc, I don’t really need to know abt it.. just get on with it”
Then she takes a really long injection. Now injections really really freak me out! Cant stand looking at them! I refused to open my mouth until she started losing patience n said †if I do the procedure without this anaesthesia, u’ll die of pain!
Lesson 2: NEVER open ur eyes while getting a dental treatment! They use pretty sharp instruments and it duznt feel nice seeing those going into ur mouth. I wished I cud close my ears off too when I was hearing things like “give a me a sharper, longer one“or
“clean all that blood“or the very annoying noise of those instruments..

Week 3:
All the way to the clinic, I was praying “please no injection today” but the first thing I saw as I took my ‘now familiar’ place was the long, horrible thing in her hand. This time thr was less drama, less panic, less hysteria.. I behaved quite well actually, though it was painful. I even got a free toothbrush..lol!


Week 4:
Again “please god, no injection” .. but..
“open ur mouth dear.. a small injection ..it was that old doc. This time it pained even less. N I didn’t freak out at all. Dat stupid long needle looked familiar. This was the most uncomfortable visit. Horrible tasting things were stuck in my mouth, it was held open 4 soo long dat I thought my jaw would break! Something very similar 2 road construction thing was done..drilling, fixing screws..
At last, “all done dear” . Root canal successful.!! Just a cap needed to b placed A very proud moment in my life. I survived it! :D
Week 5 :
Took my place very comfortably, opened my mouth for an injection. But surprise surprise, thr was no need. Just got my brand new tooth cap placed.! I was out on 15 mins!!
The best visit ever!
At the end of it all, I’d become immune to pain, injections and dentists, started hating ice cream ( my food for 5 Saturdays was only ice cream) and am very thankful to the guy who invented anaesthesia!
PS: Thr's a controversial story abt its invention which u can check out at
http://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/cgi/content/full/158/12/2103